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Alright so I had something to say earlier this afternoon it just simply didn't want to come out right now. It was all about Pheonix. She seems to be on my mind a lot lately. I suppose it has something to do with how active I've been here. I never really noticed her before. That may be because Professor Xavier had such a strong hold on her. She is ever present in my mind these days. I am worried now that she is becoming a part of Duchess as well. It could go either way. The Duchess angelic nature could be a calming influence on The Pheonix or she could only encourage her. Either way it is a powerful alliance and not one I think I could stop. Duchess once commented that Pheonix is too powerful an entity for one soul to possess. Yet for so long I managed. Though this was with the help of Xavier. As Im sure you could tell at this point I am very confused about everything that has gone on in the past couple of years. I now have this new entity, this new part of me to contend with. I have to learn how to accept her as part of me and work with her. I have to learn to be complete with her there. I have to accept that she will be there even in the tiniest moments, the most private moments in my life. She was always there of course but now. Now she is a more prominent entity and I know shes there. I want to accept her. Don't get me wrong. She is an amazing creature and I am honored that she chose me. Its just a tad unnerving at times. To know that you will never be alone. I hope sometime in the future she and I will mesh so completely that it will just be us. One day soon we will be one individual. There will be no Jean Grey or The Pheonix. She will be Jean Grey and I will be The Pheonix.
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