Rediscovering the magic.

Yes, we just got back AGAIN.  No I don't think we go too much. There's a part of us that has died. Yet in it's place a new part has grown. And both of these parts revolved around this one childhood playground. I never wanted to grow up.  Not because of Peter Pan, but because of this place. It's namesake I believe to be the wisest man that ever lived.I saw things this trip that I never had the freedom to see before.  For many many reasons. 

But for now its bedtime, in our own bed.

Stories will come later.

~Beth and Amy

 

Anna Marie Darkholme AKA Rogue Because I love her, because she deserves it more than anyone else I know, and you don't get to know the rest.

Tags: date with a star, dream date, writer's block

How often do we smell things and not notice them. Yesterday I was out by the laundry room late at night and I found myself overwhelmed with some pretty powerful smells. You know those ads for gain laundry detergent. Some of the newer fabric softeners make me want to do the same thing. Of course immediately after I moved from the vicinity of the fabric softener smell, I smelled the spice of Hispanic home cooking. Both were interesting and very powerful smells.  And it made me wonder about all those senses we pay no attention to. Taste? Hearing? Smell? Touch?  Some even take Sight for granted. I have never had that luxury as I have been plagued with very bad eyesight from my first memories and it has only gotten worse since.  Up until recently I have used glasses whos prescription was so far out of date I wouldn't have passed a driving test.  Now months later I am still marveling at the clarity of things.

In the spirit of my renewed sense of faith I am trying to get back to basics while still managing to pay my bills and go to work on time. I take the bus, not for green purposes but because I dont drive I am starting to not want to know how to drive. The amount of money we spend on gas each week is astronomical. Its about seventy dollars a week to fill the tank. No wonder we can't eat... the car is doing the eating for us.

Rant Aside what I meant by all that was that getting back to basics for me means reveling in the peace and serenity of nature. Even if its sitting on the porch listening to other TV;s and other families talking and smelling the smells form their kitchens.

As a result I have started to notice things I hear and smell more often and even notice how they affect me. Sometimes the effect is subtle but sometimes the effect is enough to make me think about the moment. Several times over the next few days.

I have in laws that live in the country on a farm.  And no where else have I been  able to feel more at peace and more comfortable then when I spend evening s up there. Of course that meant we were driving home late at night, not getting home till about three or so. But for me it was worth it. The smells sounds and over all feel of the place was more comfortable to me.

I keep wondering why I feel this way. Why I want to be away from the city yet close enough to visit daily. It's very confusing, I love San Francisco but I think would die with out the country side.

Current Location: Themyscira
Current Music: My Own Thoughts and a very Sleepy Baby Athena

Every time We go over to the Bedlam House All I hear about is how small our laptop is. Its a Netbook. And yes it is very small. r  Almost the same size as our digital reader and about three times the weight. We bought one of those inexpensive laptop cases. Our netbook fits into the accessories compartment. It is also the same size as the portable DVD player that we had. Much more usefu l however.

We're still kind of wary of the Bedlam crew. Our first instincts of them weren't the best. They are more welcoming now, it may have been the move or even perhaps the house they used to live in. Whatever the problems we had with them in the past they seemed to have dissolved.

For a while now it's really been only Diana at the front.  We have been through a rather stressful period lately though I certainly hope we have gotten past that. Work and School and the constant lack of seeing the boy, stressed us all and Beth withdrew barely conscience of her her own existence for a time. Things seemed to have slowly worked  themselves out lately.  Even staying caught up in school was becoming a challenge for us. 

As I recall this kind of problem is common in college students, older students in particular. Though Beth never felt the option of quitting she wanted to. 
I wish I could explain more but at the moment I don't have much to say.

Tonight is Scott's birthday and as a present to him Emma and I promised to work together all week to make things easier on him. James is finding the whole situation absolutely hysterical.  Beth and I saved his sanity by asking him nicely to run some errands. He grumbled a little but went with no other complaints.  Kal, Lois and Diana came by this afternoon for Kara's parent teacher conference. Not surprisingly Kal and Diana had to leave in the middle of the conference and returned later during Cyclops birthday party. The look on Kal's face as he watched the celebrations was adorable. I don't know if he was more disgusted or amusing. He kind of looked like a shy little boy that didn't know whether to join in the party or run away. In the end though I think he joined the fun. I on the other hand had to check on Cerebro with Beth.

Current Music: www.pandora.com The Nightmare Before Christmas

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Current Mood: have a migraine
Current Music: Celine Dion The Color of My Love Her best album by far

Baby it's cold outside


1) Does anyone like cold weather?

Ororo and Kitty both love cold weather. Storm because she can create snow and Kitty cause she can play in it. The Phoenix girls and I all prefer warmer weather. I grew up in Paradise after all and the Phoenix girls are birds of fire.

2) Are there any front runners who refuse to dress for cold weather? Any who love to layer?

Anna. Goddess only knows why. I Always layer. Who knows where my work will take me... from Africa to Antartica... I can visit every continent in one day. Frequently do. Jean insists on it... Dr Grey.... she can get a tad annoying sometimes. I find myself reminding her often that I am trained in medicine and science myself. Ororo has always loved layers. I guess she just likes the look of it as well as the convienence. Also that flying with the wind... tends to make things chilly.

3) Does anyone like to play winter sports?

Kitty loves Ice Skating as Does Buffy. It was Buffy's escape when she was a little girl. Buffy's Romance with Angelus started with ice skating. It was her first fond Memory of him. Jean likes to Watch Hockey but only when Logans playing and leveling everyone on the field/rink

4) Are people more (or less) likely to front in the winter?

Buffy is certainly less likely to front in the winter. She really doesnt like being cold. The rest of us it doesn't matter either way. Unless of course she's ice skating then all bets are off.

5) Are there any foods that people especially crave when it's cold outside?

Well family tradition among the Xavier clan dictates that along with cold weather comes hot chocolate eggnog... warm milk... hot toddys.... and hot cereal. Scott always tries to make hot cider.. and fails... Allowing that man near a kitchen is a recipe for disaster. Ororo is the best at the hot cider... and Anna is the hot toddy expert. Jean has this amazing recipe for hot chocolate that would give Phillipus a good run for her money. Also of course the various pies.. turkey... ham... peppermint... Though mostly warm drinks and oddly hot breakfast foods.

~Diana

Current Music: Gary Allen Life Aint Always Beautiful But its a Beautiful Ride

Everyone we know seems to be going through a tough time right now.

Everyones asking for something from me. Prayers... money... thoughts...

I can't do it anymore. I am in debt and my relatioship with the boy is on the rocks. His grandmother just died which puts more strain on our bank acct and our emotions.

I just need everyone to back off for the time being.

I love you all I just can't give anymore.

I need some myself right now...

But If you yourself are in need

Its alright... I'm not angry with any one person just stressed and sick to the point of tears.

If you have time or effort left think of us if only for a moment.


Im sorry this seems so cold. IM just very close to tears right now and I don't know how else to say anything. I never ask for help because everyone seems to be needing help from me. So I figure why burden others with my problems if they have enough to think about.

I still love you all.

~Duchess

Don't Ask. I don't Know

I have to say this.

I do not accept bullsit. Ever!

And I have noticed recently that some 'friends' of ours have stopped talking, stopped logging into messengers and all around ignoring us.

Particularly when we were in need of a friend.

THEN I hear that they believe more of themselves than they really should.

IN Some cases I have noticed that they talk highly of themselves. "I am a really good friend. I am highly confident in this."

In others they expect their 'input' to be more highly regarded than any others."

If you are such a good friend... you would not ignore people and then lie to them about it.  I was told by one person that he would not talk to me until I sorted things out with another friend of his.

I also believe that 'good friends' do not go around bragging about such things. I have issues answering those questions on a job applications. I HATE stating something about myself that should really come from an outside source. I do not know what people think of me  and I do not presume to know. If you are a good friend people should be telling you... not the other way around.

If someone is saying "I am a really good friend. Better than most." Then they are A. Fishing for compliments and when they dont receive them... give them to themselves instead and expect everyone to concur. and B. They are spending too much time thinking of themselves and obviously not enough time thinking about others.

If you wish to fool yourselves. Fine... I have no problems with that.

But lie to me and you have crossed the wrong person.

(Addendum: As always I am doubting my point of view so I went to a friend who helped me out with the Amanda situation. Here is her opinion
Real Friend pages: the more bragging that a person does, usually the less worth it they are
Real Friend has an acquaintance that's ALWAYS telling me what kind of person they are, how this or that is great, as if they were trying to convince themselves)

Tags: real friends
Current Location: Where Do You Think
Current Mood: Disgusted
Current Music: Mythbusters

Storm ended up doing these. And thanks to DanteJade for sharing them.

Tags: multiple monday, storm
Current Location: Bay Area
Current Music: No Music Unfortunately